I was very busy yesterday. I ended day with several successes, and I was pretty pleased. Also, I was able to go to sleep last night without my crazy anxiety spiral. [That backstory is an entirely different kind of post. In short: when I'm the only adult at home with sleeping kids, I find it hard to go to sleep. At bedtime last night, I was the only grown up here, but I managed ok anyway.]
Today is different. Today, I snacked all afternoon. I've eaten two dinners. I've thought about food all day.
Now I'm wondering about it all in context. Yesterday, I felt crazy. Lots of mood swings back and forth. Today I feel more stable. But the stability seems to go with giving in to the food cravings. When I'm not focusing on changing my bad habits, I have the illusion of more control. And I do realize that it's an illusion. But it's hard to accept.
Yesterday, I got a ton of stuff done. And last night, I got no sleep. I'm exhausted, and everything is harder when I'm tired.
This morning, I kept within my 200 calorie breakfast. But I skipped my book reading ("Thin Within") because I felt like I couldn't face it.
I'm wondering if there is a way to moderate my Monday/Tuesday routine a bit better. Generally, I push really hard on Mondays to get a lot done, then I "slack off" on Tuesdays. For example, yesterday (monday) I moved 7 loads worth of laundry from the dirty pile, through the wash/dry, folded it all (or used it to remake beds as appropriate), and got a lot of it put away. Today, I've managed to wash/dry two loads, but it's all still sitting in the basket waiting for me to finish it. Maybe it would be better to spread out the effort a bit more?
Any thoughts? What works for you guys? [Assuming anyone is reading this.] Moderate, or give/take?
Also, I have a doctor appointment tomorrow. I'll have to stand on a scale. Yuck.
I find that as long as I am able to say I accomplished something each day, I feel ok about the day. Some days when I have the extra energy, I get more done than I planned. Other days with less energy or when the sky dumps 6-8 inches of snow, less gets done from my list.
ReplyDeleteI love lists and progress and organization, but I have to allow myself off days. It's hard for me to give myself that kind of breathing room, especially when my lists are so long, but my mental and sometimes physical health demand it. And in the long run, I am more productive for it.
Some things do end up getting put on the back burner for quite a while. It's been a learning experience for me allowing some things to not get done in favor of others. I know, it's the heart of prioritizing, but as a perfectionist, it's hard for me to say it's ok that the trim hasn't gotten finished being painted. It was started last March. But it's ok. Alright, I might still be working on that one...
Chris, you should start using your own organization system. The one we put together for me. I do feel like it lets me manage my list really well, maximizing the high energy days. I do like the flexibility built into it. [Also thanks again for the help on that.]
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